Most of us are not ready for what it would really take to surrender to God. Jesus displayed it the best… that’s what He came to do. It’s why He died. And yet I fail to get it more often than not. I have a feeling you’re in the same boat.

Have you ever started something, determined, then didn’t follow through? 

What caused me to stop? What excuse do I have this time? Why do others follow through, when I cannot? How can people without the Spirit be more persistent than me, with the Spirit?

CHALLENGED –

Every week I walk away challenged. I have a card full of notes when I walk away from our powerfully-challenging men’s bible study @rockurban. This week is no different… BLOG. SEMINARY. WRITE. DIVORCE MINISTRY. CHARLIE.* All things I want to accomplish, with fervor. Why tomorrow will they be a faded notion?

Psalm 119:1-8

1 Joyful are people of integrity,
    who follow the instructions of the Lord.
2 Joyful are those who obey His laws
    and search for Him with all their hearts.
3 They do not compromise with evil,
    and they walk only in His paths.
4 You have charged us
    to keep your commandments carefully.
5 Oh, that my actions would consistently
    reflect Your decrees!
6 Then I will not be ashamed
    when I compare my life with Your commands.
7 As I learn Your righteous regulations,
    I will thank You by living as I should!
8 I will obey Your decrees.
    Please don’t give up on me!

Oh, God, please don’t give up on me.

Praise Him that He doesn’t. He should.

I have lived a life without You near me, unresponsive to Your touch / I’ve been tossed and trampled, I’ve been tossed and trampled / My heart once dry my tongue has spoken, “my life is for my eyes” / Broken, lost with You, I am broken, lost without You. 

Those lyrics to my song RUN ME THROUGH depict the struggle, yet the surrender to the Spirit of God to run me through with that double-edged sword (His Word), that cuts away that which needs to be cut.

Every time I’m willing… I have peace. I am peace.

Every time I’m stubborn… everything falls to pieces.

What’s it going to take?

*new blog coming soon (Why won’t Charlie get saved?)